daycare & the boss

Well daycare is going well....except my child does not want to eat while there. She eats great at home but will eat 2 bottles while in daycare. Not sure what to do about this. I've talked with the teacher and she thinks it's an adjust me thing...we'll see!
My boss I believe is pissed at me.....oh well! She wanted to take me to this butterfly garden but I really don't want to go with her (she's weird). So yesterday was to be the big day and I hid out in a co workers office until it was too late for us to go to the garden. Now the boss barely will talk to me. I think she's also pissed because I want an added role to my job and I kind of went behind her back in order to get this. If I waited for her to initiate anything it would never happen....so I got some co-workers on my side and now it will be happening. What is she going to do fire me!??? Ha ha I'm her best worker!

I guess this gets easier

Well it was Gracie's first day of school (daycare really). I think she handled it better than me. Always wondering what is she doing? Is she crying? Have they held her enough? Fed her enough? I guess this gets easier....I'm such a worrier! Only 1/2 hour left of her first day....I can't wait to see her.
The what if's are driving me crazy................what if she cries too long will she be traumatized? What if they don't care for her the way I want? What if she gets hurt? What if she gets sick? She's so little! I wish I could quit my job and stay home with her but that is not an option at this point. Everyone says she's safer in daycare...more eyes. Yeah but there are more babies too and less attention on my baby.
I guess this gets easier......or so everyone says!

Manic Monday

I have a job interview today.....a job in which I will actually use the degree my parents paid for....YIPEE! If it pays more (which I don't see how it can't) than where I work now then I will probably take the job.
My boss came into my office last week and wants to take me to a butterfly garden?????? She's so weird!!!!! Maybe I will get this new job before I have to do that.
Baby is good....we went to buy her new clothes yesterday and discovered a few things while out:
1. Never go shopping when school is about to start up.
2. Never go shopping on tax free days.
3. Look in your purse (before getting to the register) to make sure you have brought your wallet.

I searched through tons of outfits and fought off screaming at a little girl who kept walking past us saying "excuse me, excuse me " (which eventually woke Gracie up....UGHHH!), waited in line for 20 min only to discover (when I was the next in line) that I had left my wallet at home. I promptly got out of line and placed all my items back on the shelf and went home.
Just another day in my lovely life!

TGIF

Thank God it's Friday!!!!! No big plans for the weekend but I'm just glad I get two days away from work. Next week will be so busy I probably won't have time to have lunch most days.

Went to the daycare today to meet Gracie's teacher. Only one was there the rest are out sick (uh oh!!). She seemed nice...I guess my anxiety is starting to diminish some.

No other news....same old same old.

Work Sucks!!!!!

So here I am back at work for another day of mundane activities. Work is so over rated.....why do we work so hard to rush through school only to be let down when we get to the work force??? When you're in school all you want to do is get out and when you're out all you want to do is go back to those carefree college days.
The baby is doing great...going through a growth spurt which causes her to want to eat all the time and stay awake all the time. Last night was the first night in a while she didn't sleep through the night. UGGHHHH!!! Hope this isn't a new pattern she's beginning.
Yesterday my boss came in my office to talk with me about a comment I had made to another co-worker the previous day. All I said was I feel we do not need to celebrate people's birthdays every month as it seems a little juvenile (the average age in the office being around 40). She basically made some snide comment that maybe I wouldn't get anything for my birthday (well wasn't that the point I was trying to make!!!!! HELLO.......). You would think after 3 years I would learn to keep my mouth shut but like my husband says that's just not me.
Back to being bored...........................

2 1/2 months into it

It's been 2 1/2 months since the baby was born. The baby being Grace. She's beautiful (but what mother doesn't think her child is beautiful???). It's not been an easy road but not horrible either. She really is a good baby. Doesn't cry much, sleeps through the night, and is so darn cute when she smiles and laughs. I'm back at work and not enjoying it very much. It's not that I want to be a stay at home mom but I also don't want someone else raising my child. She start daycare next month and I am not looking forward to it. What if they don't do things the way I like? What if they don't hold her enough and she cries? The anxiety is eating me up.....does every working mother go through this guilt? Lucky for me I have a wonderful husband who is willing to share in the responsibilty to feed, diaper, and raise our child. He even will wke up in the middle of the night and check on her. Unfortunately we do not have careers that pay enough for one of us to even go part time. Said in our society when a nurse and a teacher can't make a good living! That's all for now.